Round Two of the Holly-Daze

While tidying up the other day, I discovered a kit to grow your own poppies. It came with a tiny pot, seeds, and a growing medium that just needs water.

I remember that we bought a few of them in the springtime, from Target, while my daughter was still living with me. On a whim, I planted the seeds. There are now tiny shoots sprouting out of the growing medium! So exciting!

I plan to give them to my mom, since the flowers would be toxic to my cats, if they ate them. But it’s fun to grow things!

I may also start over with my succulent collection. The remaining plants are looking rather sad. I can get a smaller set or maybe just one succulent plant, perhaps, and start fresh with something easier to maintain. The grocery store floral department always has some succulents for sale.

Pretty soon here I have a Zoom call with a friend from junior high/high school. Sippin’ my hot apple cider while I wait. Planning out my day. Need to pick up cat food and cat litter and grocery essentials, and I have some errands to run. A couple gifted items of clothing to exchange for a different size, a gift card I can spend at Barnes and Noble. I’m planning to get a sandwich and coffee and a book. Maybe a cookie, too!

I also found out my family got us all tickets to a New Year’s Eve event with dinner and live music. I have plenty of glitzy things I can wear, depending on how dressed up I want to get, after work that day.

Lots to be excited about, plenty to look forward to. Still, depression and fatigue like to try to point out how none of this is adequate. I think even without depression weighing me down, I tend toward pessimism. I’m trying to correct my thinking.

Oh, I also ended up changing my mind about what game to bring to the Christmas Day family meal. Someone pointed out the one I had in mind wasn’t colorblindness friendly. I knew one of the guests had a colorblind brother and didn’t want to chance it. Instead, I picked up a copy of Weird Little Elf. It was a smash hit at the party! Everyone had such a good time.

SO… I will turn on a BUNCH of lights to press back against the overcast sky, while I wait for it to be time to Zoom. I will play DnD tonight (also something to anticipate). I will have numerous adventures about town. I may even investigate the bookstore downtown with the gift certificate I got last Christmas, if I feel brave enough to look for parking.

I get terrible anxiety about driving anywhere outside of my usual loop of work/home/family. Some of that’s from the harsher driving conditions in winter, and some of it might be from having gone through 2 collisions (both cases where the other driver was where they weren’t supposed to be).

It’s something else I’d like to work on heading into 2023, so I can go more places on my own and really explore fun things to do. I used to drive all over. I once drove into Milwaukee all by myself to go to a concert and meet up with friends. I had great motivation. One of those friends was a very, very pretty guy. LOL.

Alright. I’m gonna wrap up so I can brighten up my space in preparation for the Zoom and for the mood boost. Will check in at some point again and let y’all know how the day turned out– if not later today, then another day.

If I don’t pop back in before then, Happy New Year. Keep it sparkly!!!