Blue Buddha

I found this older, filtered selfie scrolling back through my Instagram feed. It instantly reminded me of the song “Blue Buddha” by (My Life With The) Thrill Kill Kult. Such a fun song. Listening to it now.

I’m not Buddhist by any stretch, though I own some Buddha décor, and a poster with Buddhist quotes from when I worked at a video store that sold some pop art stuff.

Oh, I also have a hollow Buddha statue that I used to fill with fortune cookie fortunes. Whenever I felt like I needed random insight, I’d give the statue a little shake and tug one free, to see what it said.

I have read a few Buddhist texts, though, and I’ve made some strides toward Mindfulness here and there.

I’m fairly easily distracted by “Bright and Sparkly Things,” however, and often in my head, rather than grounded in my body. It’s a work in progress, like everything else.

Today, I’m thankful that we’ve had more sunny days. I did get out for a walk the other day after work, before the sun went down. The air was a bit crisp, but not terribly so.

I’m thankful for the friends with whom I played online DnD with last night. My character got polymorphed into a butterfly just before we wrapped up until next week. I actually thought that was pretty cute. I do love butterflies. I even have butterfly wings tattooed on my shoulders. We’ll see what happens with my character, when combat resumes.

Again, I celebrate music and color, art in all its splendid forms, and the freedom to casually study and learn from various belief systems.

I’m grateful for the opportunity for therapy, especially that I can continue to do it virtually. I feel like it’s easier for me to open up at home than it would be in the office. And my therapist really enjoys it when my cats walk by the webcam. She joked that if she could, she’d mandate me making in-person appointments with my cats, so she could meet them and pet them.

I’m thankful for upcoming plans to visit my daughter, and really just for her, in general, as well as the rest of my family and all of my friends. I’ve definitely been isolating again due to depression and fatigue, but I’m going to try my best to crawl back out of my usual “chrysalis” of pillows and blankets, once more.

Thank you for reading! Much love! In case I don’t get around to posting again tomorrow, have a delightful Valentine’s Day, however you may choose to honor it.