So, I’m having kind of a rough night.

Everything started out okay. Made it to the Mexican restaurant to meet my friend, and got there just a little bit after she did. Parked next to her. Still plenty of room in the lot. I was right. Getting there a bit before they had advertised today’s event beginning, was the move.

The food was uh-mazing. I had a MASSIVE chicken mole burrito. I’ll admit I couldn’t quite finish all the filling, but I did my best. There was just a smidge left on my plate. Not even worth boxing, even if I hadn’t had somewhere to be right after.

Because, as I realized while in the process of getting ready to leave today, TONIGHT was the Black Veil Brides concert.

We got rained out, sitting on the restaurant’s patio, at one of the few tables that didn’t have its own umbrella. And the patio wasn’t covered with any kind of awning or anything, just fenced in. So we had to go inside. And we decided to go our separate ways.

I drove to the concert venue early, not having anything else to do or anywhere else I wanted to go. Was charging my phone and doing my makeup. Here’s the selfie I took just before everything went sour:

THEN I got really sick and had to drive home immediately.

Same thing happened right before the art show, though that night, kiddo called me and talked me down, and I got a ride and was still able to go. But I was not physically or mentally prepared to stand for like 3 hours and be surrounded by LOUD ass music, after all of that. It just seemed like too much.

I am still kind of disappointed. Kiddo loved Black Veil Brides back in the day. But I happened upon their latest single and found it thematically a bit troubling and maybe not something I should be listening to when I’m already kinda depressed. So there’s that. I won’t go into details because I don’t wanna post anything triggering. But I guess I should’ve seen it coming by the name of the tour. Alas.

***EDIT: After kiddo woke up and we started texting, she clarified that the whole song is an elaborate Sweeney Todd reference. So yeah. Still grisly lyrically, but not what I had thought at all. Made me feel a bit better about digging their sound.***

SO now I am on my own for the remainder of the night, listening to Spotify. Classic Oldies Motown. We will see where our musical mood takes us tonight.

I did, however, also reach out to someone I knew in my teen years, with whom I had reconnected I think just before kiddo moved out, about a dance/poetry collaboration. I wrote a poem and made a painting, and she designed and performed choreography to accompany it, and created a video of all of the elements together, along with my voice recording reading the poem aloud.

Anyway, she was very encouraging and supportive, having long-term medical issues of her own that have caused plans to fall apart. And she said we could chat over Zoom sometime this month, if I can send her my upcoming availability. So there’s that to be thankful for, as well.

And my bestie eventually got back to me, and offered some comforting words.

I’m guessing I will hear from kiddo eventually, too. Not sure what she had going on today. But she’s definitely allowed to have a life of her own. Things happen, and you can’t expect anyone to be there literally EVERY time you have a crisis. Sometimes you have to comfort yourself, or branch out to others in your support network. So that’s what I tried to do.

And that’s why I’m here, too. I find this blog really helpful, since it encourages me to reframe my perspective and look for the good.

SO: What else have we got?

I have an episode of X-Men 97 waiting for me. And I suppose I could watch something Star Wars related for Star Wars Day. AND I have plans to meet friends tomorrow. AND even with a sprinkling of rain having landed in my Diet Coke, my burrito was outstanding.

I do have a photo of it that I took just before digging in, but it’s not anything visually outstanding lol… retrospectively, I probably should’ve cut it in half to get a pic of the filling layers. Next time.

What the heck? I guess I’ll share it anyway. It was their house burrito. Very tasty.

I guess that’s all I’ve got for the time being. And I’m gonna allow myself some time to cry tonight. It’s been a lot. Hopefully the weekend turns around tomorrow.

Apparently kiddo was napping. She just texted. So, mystery solved. And she was very empathetic about my missing the show.

Anyway. Have a lovely remainder of your day or night, my lovelies. I leave you with this cup full of silver glitter, because it fits the title of this post, and it made me smile. Thanks for listening, if you read this. Much love.